I call you stranger because I don't even know if the person who is going to read this is someone I know. I feel so alone and so down with no one to cry too, I feel like the world had abandon me. I don't know what to do.
I just learn two days ago that there is a chance that I might not have a chance to have a baby and even a chance to have cancer of the uterus. I was so strong and did not cry when the doctor told me but then when I got home and so alone everything start to sink in and I started to fall apart. I wanted to cry but there are no tears in my eyes, I feel like its all just burning inside.
I was thinking should I tell Ian about it.. oh yes Ian, who is Ian, he is my fiance and he is working on board a ship, right now I don't know where they are. We have been together for almost 5 years now going six next year. I ask the question should I wait till he comes home or should I tell him and just get over with. I choose to just tell him cause i don't think i can hold that information for 4 months.
Well that was the last message he ever seen from me and he never replied to my messages. I sent him another message again today and he did not reply. I know though that he did read my message because it was on facebook and people know when people read messages they sent on that.
I should be writing more but I have to go. I am travelling to Isabella right now and I will post another one when I get back online.
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